Making Plans

Have you ever heard that saying, "you make plans and God laughs"? Its becoming more and more true everyday for me. If you know me, then you know I like to have a plan in place for what we're doing, where we're going, what time are we going, what time are we leaving, what are we going to do while we're there, whats it going to be like, who's going to be there, what should I wear, etc.... ya know, the typical semi-OCD behavior.

But really there is no point in trying to pinpoint exactly whats going on, how its going, where its going on and why its going on. But sometimes, I cant help it! I have to know so I can feel more confident about what I'm doing, what I can bring to the table (so to speak). I guess this can really only apply to those occasions (not moments) in life of invitations - either received or given. We definitely can not make plans for anything else in life ie, finding the love of your life and marrying (when there is no boyfriend or ring in sight) and conceiving a baby. These are things that happen when they are meant to happen. We can certainly try our hardest and damnest to get them to happen, but really its not up to us. Call if fate, destiny, divine intervention - either way we cant make all the decisions that affect our life. And that kind of bums me out. And yet it kind of makes me happy - that there is a surprise in store for us, and that we don't know when it will appear.

It seems like all of my friends are on the baby track or have been and thinking about the second go-round. Some are not having any trouble, while others are having too much trouble. It breaks my heart because 1.) I cant fix it, and have to watch them suffer and 2.) I have no point of reference to know how they feel to commensurate or give advice. I will just continue to keep them in my thoughts and hope for the best for them - whatever the outcome may be, it will BE for a reason.

I can very easily make a plan to get a new job, get married, and buy a house. But will those things happen because I made a PLAN to accomplish them? Absolutely not. I can do my best to reach these goals (not sure if I want to think of getting married as a "goal" though!?) and hope for the best. And that's exactly what I'll be doing...